I wasn't his. He wasn't mine. I always wished he was mine though. Instead of hers, I wanted to be his. My parents always knew I was gay. They denied that their only son was gay, so, I couldn't show it. Openly gay in public would earn me a beating. Yes. I, Roxas Mitzu, would be beaten for being gay out in public. Yes, I would let somebody hit me and do nothing back. I just gave up after a while.

            My parents were strong Christians with no pushing in anything new. They stuck to the Bible like glue. They are beside the point....

            He was always my best friend. Pretending to be straight for my parents, just so that we could be friends for as long as needed. He was always dating him. I guess you could call me jealous when their eight year anniversary came up a few days after our fourth friendship year. The one who had my beloved had my cousin's eye. Riku Kissari was his name. Riku Kissari had my beloved. Riku Kissari always had my beloved and knew it was killing me to see them together. Riku Kissari even knew he had my cousin's eye.

            Did Riku Kissari care about anything aside from hurting me or my cousin? No. Did my beloved, Axel Nomura, see how much it hurt me to see them together? No.

            “Hey, Axel,” I once said, “will we always be friends?”

            “Roxie,” he replied, “I really like you.” I blushed, “but your an idiot for asking such stupid things. We have always been friends, we will always be friends. There's no need to ask such things.”

            “Thanks....Axel....”

            I always loved Axel. Ever since I first saw him in our fourth block in Port Royal High School. I just didn't know how much I loved him until our 3rd year of friendship. I know I truly loved Axel Nomura.

            “Hey, Naminé,” I said walking up to her after school.

             Naminé looked at me with hopeful wide eyes. “Yes, Roxas?”

             I smiled evilly at her. She was a strong Christian, like my parents. I knew I was going to crush her. I didn't care. I was leaving the next day. “I'm gay. I hate you. I don;t ever want to see you again, and, if I do, it'll be too soon.”

             She was stunned, her eyes wide with shock and rejection. Tears welled up in her eyes as she ran away.

             I still didn't care. I never cared about anybody other than Axel. I started walking in the direction of his house.

             “Hey, Roxas! Great to see you again!” Riku waved at me when he answered Axel's door.

             I put on my mask. “Hey, Riku! What's up!? Haven't seen you in awhile! Where have you been?” I asked walking into Axel's house and sitting down on the couch.

             “Went to visit my crazy aunt. I swear. Aunt Yuffie is going insane!” Riku said laughing and sitting in the other chair.

             “Still claiming she's the worlds greatest ninja?”

             “Yeah! She's pretty good, but not that good!”

             “Yo, Roxas! What's up man?” Axel said walking in from the kitchen.

             I smiled up at him. “Nothing really. How's college treating you, Axel?”

             He waved his hand in front of his nose, as if swatting away some foul smell. He then smirked and winked one of his acid green eyes. “Like a bitch, kid.” He then laughed as I half-heartedly glared at him. His laugh was like bells.

            We all talked until Riku got a call from his mom telling him to go home.

             “Are you really leaving tomorrow?” He asked me after Riku left for his own home.

             I looked down at the streets below us. He had driven me to my favorite place, the clock tower. We were sitting at the very top, just watching the sunset and eating Sea-Salt Ice Cream. “Yeah....” I whispered and my Ice Cream continued to melt.

             “Can I give you my going away present now?”

             I looked up at him, only to be met with him looking at the streets. His brilliant red hair covering half of his face. “Axel....” I said dropping my snack. “You didn't have to get me anything.”

             Axel looked up at me and smiled. “Do you want it or not? Simple question shortie!”

             “Axel.” I ground out. “Don't call me that pyro!”

             We laughed for a little while before silence fell over us.

             “Well?” Axel broke the silence while staring off in the distance.

             I held out my hand and said; “Yeah. I'll take it.”

             He took my hand and pulled me closer to him. He pushed his lips against mine softly. My eyes widened in shock. Is he really kissing me? Maybe I'm dreaming. Either way, I slowly started to kiss him back, wrapping my arms around his neck as he wrapped his arms around my waist.

             He ran his tongue over my bottom lip, asking , begging, for entrance. I opened my mouth as his tongue entered. We battled for a short moment for dominance before I gave into submission. We broke apart for air.

             Gasping, he smirked and laid his forehead on mine. “You don't know how long I've wanted to do that, Roxas.”

             I smiled up at him. “Axel....” I then frowned and pushed him away. I got up and walked away from him. As I turned the corner, I saw the confusion on his face.

              I couldn't handle it. He was dating Riku. I knew that, even if anything happened between us, it wouldn't last.

             The next day when I was leaving for college I saw him sitting outside on the street curb.

             I walked up to him, I don't know why....I just did. “Hey.”

             “He didn't look up at me. “Why did you run off yesterday? You were more than willing to kiss me back. Why push away from me and then run off?”

             I took a seat next to him and sighed. “Because, Axel, if things went any further, I wouldn't be able to handle it. Your dating Riku, not me. You can't kiss me, and then go and kiss him.”

             Axel stood and extended his hand for mine. “Roxas, get your damned head straight. Me and Riku haven't be dating for a month. He's been dating your cousin.”

             I took the offered hand and he pulled me up. “I have to go Axel.”

             “Wanna go for a walk? Real quick. I'll bring you back before your plane takes off. If you miss your plane, then I'll drive you all the way to where ever your going. Promise.”

             “Alright.” I said as we started walking down to the park, still holding hands. What could my parents do?

             We were talking about everything from school to the future. If we would still be friends or not. It was peaceful, nothing but peaceful. I really did need to walk with him.

             “Roxas.” He whispered. “I don't want you to go. Can't you stay here?”

             I sighed. “Axel, I've already told you, I can't.” I looked down at my feet. I couldn't look at him. He's been really desperate for me to stay. I didn't understand it, until now at least.

             “Roxas....” Axel started. “How long are you going to be gone?”

             “About four years.”

             “You'll wait for me?” Axel tightened his hand.

             I looked up at him and smiled. “Of course Axel. I gotta go back now.”

             We walked back to my house in silence.







For four years. Four years. Four long damned years. I haven't talked to him in that long. I've waited for him. I haven't kissed since that day on the clock tower. Nobody's held my hand since that last day. I hated that day. I hated college for four years.

             I was walking down the street, my parents finally dieing. I wasn't going anywhere in particular.

             “Roxas? Roxas Mitzu?” A voice said from behind me.

             I turned and saw Riku. “Yeah. Riku?” I asked making sure.

             Riku cracked a big grin. “Yeah. When'd you get back?”

             “Today. Going for a walk before I throw things out of my house.”

             “I heard about that. I'd say sorry, if either one of us cared.” We both laughed at this. “Man. OH! Roxas, Axel has been missing you badly lately. You know, when you didn't come back last week, he started thinking that you weren't coming back again. What took you the week?”

             “Friends wedding.” I shrugged. “How is he?”

             Riku turned and started to walk away. “Ask him your self.” He waved over his shoulder. “He works at the Radiant Garden Elementary School as a kindergarten teacher.”

             I smirked. “He did it.” I started walking towards the school.

             School was almost over and I didn't see any means to go in and interrupt his class. I just sat on the bench outside across the street and waited for the final bell to ring.

             I looked up when I heard the bell ringing. I stretched and walked closer to the sidewalk. I smiled when I noticed the similar flame bobbing up and down in the crowds, need less to say it was going backwards.

             “Alright kids! Get on the bus! NO! Rikku, Paine, and Tifa not on Wakka's bus! I don't remember seeing a note from your parents! Get on your OWN buses! Tidus! You too! Sora's gonna have a cow if you don't come home on time!” He shouted over the school children.

            I was leaning against one of the stone pillars outside the narrow entrance. I watched him smirking as he almost tripped over the little kids.

            “Mr. Nomura?” A small girl said tugging on his pants leg.

            “Yes, Aeris?” He asked looking down at the little girl.

            “There's some high schooler over there staring at you.” She pointed over to me.

            OK! I know I'm short! Really though, do I still look like I'm in high school?!

            “What? The high schoolers....” He looked up at me and his mouth dropped open wide while his eyes went as big as dinner plates. “R-Roxas....”

            I waved and straightened, not moving away from the pillar. “Hiya, Pyro.”

            He went back to ushering the children to their buses. I stood there for a few more minutes before he came over to me.

            He pulled me up in a big hug and spun in circles. “When did you get back?”

            “Riku asked that.... I got back today. Why did you think I wasn't coming back?” I asked when he put me down.

            He still held onto my arms. “You said that you'd be back in four years, not four years and one week! So.... I got worried, Roxas.”

            I sighed. “Wanna go for a swing?” I smiled up at him.

            He nodded and we walked to the same park. Pride Lands park was still as I remembered it.... Old, rusty, small, and boring.

            We walked over to the swings and sat there. We were silent for a few minutes.

            “Roxas?” Axel asked looking at me.

            I started to swing back and forth, not going very high, “Yeah, Axel?”

            “You really waited?”

            “Yeah. You were the last person who held my hand, and the last person who laid their lips on mine. I promised you, didn't I?”

            Axel leaned over and stopped my swing. “Just checking. Making sure I wasn't gonna be kissing some other guys lips....” Axel leaned in and pressed his lips against mine softly.

            I slid my eyes closed and kissed him back. How long has it been since I've kissed him again? No idea anymore.... He put one of his hands on my cheek and rubbed it with his thumb. I smiled into the kiss as he ran is tongue over my bottom lip. I opened my mouth as I explored the warm cavern that I have longed to explore. We battled again, before I gave in.

            He pulled away from me smiling.

            “Hey, Roxas....” He asked breathlessly.

            “Yeah, Ax?” I asked, just as breathless

            “Will we always be friends?”

            I smiled and closed my eyes. “No. Not unless you wanna be.”

            “I don't want to be friends any more either.” We both laughed.

            “Roxas Mitzu! Axel Nomura!” A soft voice shouted from behind us.

            We both turned to see a woman as tall as me in a white dress. “Naminé?”

            She opened her white purse and put her hand inside of it. She glared at us. “You don't know how long I've been waiting for this day to come. I knew you two liked each other. I've been waiting for awhile now....”

            Axel got up and stood in front of me. “Waited for what?”

            Naminé smirked and pulled out a gun. “This.” She raised it and shot.

            For me, everything went in slow motion. From the moment that she pulled out the gun to the moment she shot the first bullet.



            “ROXAS!” I yelled as my blond fell to the ground clutching his heart. I shot up from the ground and ran for him.

            Roxas coughed up some blood. He took in a ragged breath as Naminé ran away. “A-Axel....” He smiled at me.

            “Roxas....” I said as I held onto him.

            “Axel.... Those kids....need you....more than me.... Take care....of them....” He said as his eyes slipped shut.

                                    ”Hey, Axel....Will we always be friends?”

                               “Roxie, I really like you, but your an idiot for asking such stupid things. We have always been friends, we will always be friends. There's no need to ask such things.”

                        “Thanks....Axel....”

                                                            ”I really hope, one day, we'll be more though Roxas. I love you more than you'll ever know....” Axel thought on that day.

                                                BANG!

                                    Axel didn't cry on the day he lost his blond. He didn't want to. He didn't find any need to either. He, instead, reached for the gun, cocked it, and pulled the trigger.

            The were both sinners. They fell in love with their best friend, didn't care who they hurt, didn't care who they stepped on, and died for each other.

                        At least in the eyes of one blond female, who never got away........

                                                ”Tonight, we have three deaths. Police found 26 year old Radiant Garden Elementary school teacher, Axel Nomura, shot in the head on top of 24 year old Roxas Mitzu, also shot in the heart dead. They were found in the Pride Lands park around five thirty.

                        A few minutes later, 23 year old Naminé Hikari was found brutally beaten to death and her throat then sliced-”

            The T.V. cut off while a blond male smiled. “I told her not to mess with them, didn't I?”

            "That you did. That you did." Another male voice said calmly, not looking up from his book.